It sucks when you have it all figured out, and things go according to plan, and then nothing.
Not even acknowledgment… Not even the respect of a no.
So surrender… Sick of it… Not willing to try anymore.
To be mistaken for a friend…
I … A LOT
Anyway… Time to cut my losses, give up, and walk away.
I’ve never hated the idea of giving up on anything as much as I do today.
So what did I accomplish on my days off this week?
hmmmm…
Not enough sleep – but that’s pretty normal…
I spent more money than I can afford to spend – that too, is pretty normal…
Took my car in, got an oil change, checked the tires for leaks, got some broken mouldings fixed, and they ordered a new radio (the current radio likes to, on occasion, randomly change stations… might be cool if it was any good at picking stations, but it isn’t. It MIGHT be a problem with the wiring to the steering controls, so if it keeps on doing it, that’ll be the next thing replaced. Thank you warranty.)
Then I went to Canadian Tire and invested in some new windshield wipers. Apparently being able to see is a priority in my life – next payday I’m going to get my eyes checked again (it’s been a couple years)
I supposed I might also want to invest in a prostate exam, I am getting close to that age, and knowing cancer might be coming to kick my ass would be preferable to getting it kicked out of nowhere.
First thing is first, I should get myself a doctor, a massage therapist, and a chiropractor.
oh, and a lover.
I’d love to date someone, but let’s face it, I don’t have the time or energy right now to make a relationship work, I just need to find someone I enjoy the company of, who enjoys my company, so we can spend a few hours every week finding new ways to make each other cum.
Is that dirty?
At least I want to be monogamously dirty – lover with future girlfriend/wife potential, but no real strings for the time being (for her… a good woman need not be tied down to someone in a shit working situation… I’m perfectly happy to accept some strings, as long as they’re rational… ie. no fucking anyone else whilst fucking me, no telling the parents we’re not actually an item, no meeting the parents unless we become an item, no leaving until I have at least 4 or 5 orgasms, no sticking it in until I’ve had at least one already just in case your little weenie disappoints today… use your imagination)
pretty excited for next week – going to see some friends play a show… Paul and Lisa, aka Mojave (http://www.mojavemusic.ca) – haven’t chilled with them in a long time… last time was, I do believe, when we all went and chilled at the Whiskey Bar in Gastown – before Paul decided to become Vegan (he was vegetarian at the time)… but it’s probably easier going all the way, since Lisa already was… weird pair, those, but who am I to talk – I may be an omnivore who shows up for work on time every day, but that’s about where I run out of normal lol… anyways, I booked days off, so I can relax a bit, and see Mojave play at the Roxy… it’s 7 bucks to get in with a ticket, or 10 without… if you have a ticket, you also get a free drink.
texted with some random girl… dunno if she’s cute or not, but texting with her as been fun – responding to wrong number texts can make for an interesting time lol… I’m too old for her, but whatever floats her boat. No laws would be broken if we hooked up… guess that counts for something. I actually don’t intend to, but it makes me giggle a little… I can secretly wonder if she’s alright with a little buttsex, or a great gooey facial…
and here we see what Patrick actually has on his mind… been too long I guess.
I decided at xmas last year that I was going to remain celibate until I found someone worth keeping. Ironically, I was sleeping with someone amazing at the time – she was top notch, beautiful, and sweet… but she stopped talking to me, and I didn’t pursue. I think her situation intimidated me more than a little (single mom, financially stable, headed in the right direction). Maybe I should have chased a little harder, but she was waking up at ungodly hours so we could sleep together, and it didn’t seem fair to her at all. Should have let her choose =/
Anyways, decided to stop sleeping with her, we stopped talking.
And now, well… I have a short list of people I would like to sleep with in that whole “fuckers with potential to be lovers” criteria.
I don’t usually write in this blunt of a fashion – mayhaps I’ll offend someone 
excuse me while I spank the monkey a little (euphemism for playing with my penis for those who might not be clear on the concept)
Hope everyone is doing well
I actually feel a little bad for posing a little raunchy material in the same entry as the mention of Mojave… although, Roadie is clearly a huge perv, so I guess it kinda fits.
What happened to the simple days of “Hey, you’re cool… I like you, wanna hang out?”
why is dating about more than that?
I mean – you enjoy the company of someone, you hang out with them, after a little while you realize that things are fun, maybe you make out a little… one thing leads to another, and then you have fun when you’re together, and you have sex while you’re alone.
It’s about being with someone you LIKE.
why people complicate it into some mystical pizza… a complicated, difficult recipe that befuddles the smartest in the room…
I don’t play games
If I like you, you should know I like you.
If I want you, there’s a good chance you have an inkling that I want you.
Why does it have to be silly and complicated?
Hi, I’m Patrick, and I like doing cool stuff with you, btw, I’d like to make you cum, because well… making you feel good would be lots of fun – would you mind?
urgh
maybe I’m just sexually deprived… but I never ever believed in the complications of dating. You can be passionate without being complicated.